I find myself saying this lately. A whole lot as a matter of fact. I think to everyone I know. I really am happy for other people when I find out they apparently have drawn the bigger straw than me & are allowed to make a baby! I know my voice drips w/ sarcasm but I somehow do feel happy for other people I just feel really sucky for myself.
I really want a baby sooo much. Sure babies are adorable & will be super cute but I want to be a mommy. I have this overwhelming urge to just nuzzle w/ every baby I see. They are amazing. I'm so mystified by these little beings who have the ability to make my whole world seem different.
I will admit the great thing about everyone I know having babies is I get to do a whole lot of holding & cooing & just plain loving. The downside to this is when I must give them back & I fell the lump in my throat rising & my heart fill up w/ an emptiness I never knew existed.
I guess till then we will have to keep up the baby-making triathlons. I will touch base more on that side of things later.
